So I leave for Houston in a few hours. Gonna be there till Wednesday for work. Time to sweat!

So I got back from CA last night. Had an amazing trip. Was really fun to make new friends and hang out with ones I've already got. Northern California is one of the most beautiful places I have ever been. The trees, the hills, the weather, the plants that grow there. It just all so incredible. And so different from what is here in Texas. I definitely miss California.

San Francisco was also an amazing experience. I have not been there since I went there with my family when I was like 10. The city itself is beautiful. Practically surrounded by water and streets like rollercoasters, again, so different than Texas. I've never felt that comfortable being gay anywhere in my life. In NYC and Chicago, it definitely felt different than walking around Dallas. But in SF, it was embraced. When I was flying in, I just felt a sense of peace about it all. Like the city wanted me to be comfortable there. It was definitely awesome.

A friend of mine told me that I wouldn't be the same when I got home. And I didn't really think that much about it. He knows that I'm ready for some kind of change in my life and so I figured he meant I'd just want to move out there immediately. And don't get me wrong, it would be awesome to live there, but its definitely not practical right now. WAY too damn expensive out there. But now that I'm back home, I feel different. Something in me has changed. But I don't really know how to describe it. I feel like my thought processes have changed as far as how to do things with my life. I think the trip helped me grow up some more and mature a little bit more. I feel complete now, or like there was an empty space and something filled it. I don't know what or how or why, but I definitely feel more whole as a person.

well i finally made one of these. hopefully ill use it a lot.